Some quotes I hope may resonate with you.
"I've been a rebel all my life, against tyranny and arrogant authority, which is what we have now." - Eric Clapton
"Determination mixed with resourcefulness is nearly unstoppable." - Shane Parrish
"You always own the option of having no opinion." - Marcus Aurelius
"Patience is a competitive advantage. In a surprising number of fields, you can find success if you are simply willing to do the reasonable thing longer than most people." - James Clear
"Bitter are the roots of study, but how sweet their fruit." - Cato
"The odds of an academic "researcher" producing anything eventually used by society is of the order of .00001%. That includes scientists. The odds for a baker: 100%." - Nassim Taleb