Some quotes I hope may resonate with you.
"Treat yourself like someone you're responsible for helping." - Jordan Peterson
"But if someone has a gun and is trying to kill you... it would be reasonable to shoot back with your own gun." - Tenzin Gyatso, The 14th Dalai Lama
"My only measure of success is how much time you have to kill." - Nassim Taleb
"You want to be free, but accountable." - Naval Ravikant
"That which is against communism is for humanity." - Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
"There are just two rules of governance in a free society. Mind your own business. Keep your hands to yourself." - P.J. O'Rourke