Some quotes I hope may resonate with you.
"Books are the training weights of the mind." - Epicetus
"If you want to be a clear thinker you cannot pay attention to politics because it'll destroy your ability to think." - Naval Ravikant
"I distrust a man that says when. If he's got to be careful not to drink too much it's because he's not to be trusted when he does." - Dashiell Hammett
"Remember that to change your mind and to accept correction are free acts." - Marcus Aurelius
"The collective noun for a group of statisticians is a quarrel." - John Tukey
"I often carry things to read so that I will not have to look at people." - Charles Bukowski
"If we encounter a man of rare intellect, we should ask him what books he reads." - Ralph Waldo Emerson